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Friday, February 26, 2010 .
I did mentioned to you people about me heading to BATAM right?At least i thought i did...My dad cancelled my trip..Cool huh?So yea...Instead of actually having fun there...I kind of rot at home doing nothing apart from rotting my youth off...Did i also mentioned about the fact that I actually went off to school for the sake of being told to report to school he you're not going for the trip...?I was lucky that sha actually answered my call on time...Forget it...
Now i'm supposingly in the bus headed towards BEDOK...I'm blogging at two in the afternoon of saturday,twenty-seventh of february...Meeting my cousins later on at the interchange...Shall have loads to talk about...I think..
Tuesday, February 23, 2010 .
Sorry for the no post yesterday....Well the story goes like this...I think i Blogged like am essay but my butterfingers caused me a post lost...Thus,i beca lazy to type another one...As you guys should know...I can't blog using a computer therefor my only substitute is my trustworthy handset...Great...
The feeling is becoming worse...I don't think i can deny it...The fact that I Nur Rafidah loves him can no longer be denied...But now...Its too late...However I still have a small hope...The chances of him surviving is about 20%...Even if he does...He'll become a vegetable...I'll be able to be with him...But its like talking to a wall...He won't be able to do anything...Just lie down on the bed and staying alive with the help of a life support machine...Oh gawd...Please help him survive...You're the only one that I know of that could make miracles happen...Even if he does survive but doesn't remember me...I don't mind...Oh gawd...You have the ability to give and take life away...I just~~
Monday, February 22, 2010 .
I feel great...Like i mentioned...Never follow the blog's timing..I'm now blogging at ten on the night of twenty second FEBRUARY...Life had been great...A lesson that i learnt the hard way recently is what ever bad stuff that we ever did have its own consequences...Boy...Did my consequences left a deep scar in my mind...The pain burned and embossed itself in my mind...
Anyway...I seriously don't get what teenagers nowadays are thinking...So far...The weirdest one i know was an idiot who drank a mixture of weird stuff...Got himself hospitalised for doing so...Whereas others put on a two sided mask..The latest one that i've seen and heard...Jumped to conclusions without finding out the facts and the myth...Forget it...As long as you don't mention my name in anything that you say...I don't give a damn of what was going no...I'm neutral...I look from a point of view..In my opinion...Both parties are wrong...Shall continue in another post another time...SLEEPY!!!
Saturday, February 20, 2010 .
I'm down these days.There's just a burden that i want to get rid of...I brought it upon myself but i seriously want to get rid of it...I went through a very stress period hence i kind of mistook care of my hair and now there's dreads...I can't seem to get rid of it...Worse situation i can think of is to get a total haircut...Yes...You're thinking of what i'm thinking...An army man look...Which girl wants huh?I got busted yesterday...My mum caught sight of it...It kind of added to my depression...You could say that alright...The way i let her down made me even more depressed...She wanted to help me but i don't knowla...Its worst that my aunt and her hubby and baby is living there...Great huh?I just hope that they're out...Got to go..
Please help me rid of these dread so i could move on..
Thursday, February 18, 2010 .
Alright where was i?Right...We went to orchard centre and camwhored...The escalators were long and slow hence we actually camwhored along the way to the rooftop...Firdaus is damn photogenic...I had my share...We also took pictures on the walkway beside orchard ion..The memory with them shall be kept with me forever...
Before we actually started to camwhore..We accompanied Sha to get her pay...All these ended at around 5 coming to 6...We took the red line only difference was that we headed in the different directions...Me and Sha headed towards Marina whereas Junaid,Divya and Firdaus headed towards jurong east...Sha stopped at City Hall...Bid goodbye and continued my journey home..
Reached home and showered...Felt relieved that i could finally rest...My legs were throbbing...The experience was great...I hope we could continue doing these type of things together...Well got to go..Got to study...
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As usual,I'm in school...Blogging because of the unusual amount i have during lesson...Miss Fun ain't going to start her lecture any sooner from the looks of things...
Yesterday went perfectly.The only thing that made me almost explode was that,they FUCKING showed me their attitude...What the hell...I wasn't involved in whatever you guys were in...I'm switzerland yet you bitches showed me your attitude...Forget it...You guys want to show me attitude...Alright...I'll make sure your life becomes miserable in school...So miserable to the max that you guys might even want to think again if you want to show me that bitchy attitude of yours...Or maybe,i should just ignore..There kind of people are just plain immature...
On the lighter side,i think i found my own group of friends'...The pan pacific hotel was perfect...I loved the ambience...After the visit,Mrs JUNAID,Firdaus,Shawindah,Divya and me walked around orchard...I kind of bonded with them...Headed off to orchard centre and camwhored...
Wednesday, February 17, 2010 .
Well,whoever read my blog should watch a video on youTube..Not a video about me but about an orange...An annoying orange...It made me laugh at first but later,i found it irritating to the max...Just type annoying orange...
I'm in school of course...don't follow the timing from the post..It's pathetic to the max...Now is 10am on thursday 18th of february 2010...Waiting for the test to start and then would be having some lesson with my class advisor before heading for pan pacific...
The class condition is getting worse...Seriously speaking,the least they could do was say good morning or for the love of the fucking society...just smile...gawd...it doesn't help the social status...Forget it...Alright...there's one thing i hate the most is not knowing what happened and was scolded...He was admitted to the hospital mainly because he's...Didn't tell me anything about his feelings...i fell for someone else and drank chemicals...Is it my fault???i don't know...i'm just sorry...
Tuesday, February 16, 2010 .
Its been quite some time since i last posted here.Life's just couldn't get any better.Problem brewed here and there.My heart just couldn't be kept still...
(Yes,if you guys were thinking what i think you were thinking,then yes.)
The problems are kind of childish and stupid and the same time...
The class became un-united...
He got admitted to east shore hospital...
Over something stupid...or rather someone...ME...
I feel super guilty...guilty...guilty...guilty...
Someone help me get my feelings right...
Tuesday, February 9, 2010 .
Time flies so fast and i just realised that it's already february..Going to be 14th soon..Valentine..Even a sweet message would make my day..I don't think he exist..It's almost 4 years since i knew him..There's no sign of proof or evidence to actually that could back up what she said about him..
Why would a good looking guy like him have feelings for me..You could say i'm pessimistic but when it comes to love and soul mates,i'd rather set the standard low..
1.i'm not chubby,I AM FAT...
2.i DON'T HAVE looks...
Forget it,i don't feel like talking about it lah..I just hope that what i thought would come true hence this feelings could go away..CONSTRICTING!
Monday, February 8, 2010 .
I feel quite lost nowadays..No,not about life and decisions...My life seems like a gentle flow of water...It's about other things..Things that I'm bound to hurt in..It pure pleasure but after it does,it a stab through your heart..I don't know if I should just ride the feeling or just ignore it..What should I do?
Thursday, February 4, 2010 .
Here I am in the cybercafe blogging yet another nonsensical post..I don't know what's happening to the world.Everyone changes after sometime and over a small matter.Forget it lah..I got no mood to blog..
PS:Bribing would get you no where Biatch!
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LIke finally..My fingers are gently tapping the keys on the keyboard...Haha..I don't know why but nowadays I found it hard to actually go to the Lan Centre to have a minimum of 1 hour leisure.Forget it.I skipped 2 days woth of school due to the terrible backache I had the day before yesterday when I was in school.Well,ther's nothing much to blog actually.I end it off here to watch a few other korean or Japanese Dramas.
Monday, February 1, 2010 .
I'm now in the freaking bus,on my way to my campus...Seriously speaking,I don't even know why I'm going to school...Apart from business skills and communication ethics,I don't know why I'm attending school for business mathematics...All we did was revise percentage,statistics and a few other topics that I'm quite good at... Sorry if that sounded as if I'm bragging...
Alright...Truth be told...People asked why i'm never attached...Let me make this clear...First foremost,WHO would want me?Secondly,why would I go around picking up guys?There's ain't no free time..Third,I've yet to find the right person...Lastly,I want to actually focus on my education...Did I make myself clear?I hope so...
Well,I think the clear factor of me not having a boyfriend IS that I have the proportionate shape of an hour glass but maybe bigger...Also,I am NOT good looking...
Adieu...
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Have you guys heard of 'gut' feelings?Well,my gut feelings is that,things would turn out better than i thought...I should be getting a bunch of new friends soon...Also for those who knew me better,should know that the greatest thing i despise is doing a presentation...Yes i can come out with tons of ridiculous ideas but i tend to really shy during presentations...
Babe,if you're reading this,you should know that i feel kind of depressed that my closest of the closest friends are actually kinda avoiding each other...Was the closeness before a fake facade too?I thought by leaving you guys to pursue my dreams would make you guys closer...Was i just a tooth filling that filled the void in between you guys?i don't get it...
Reflect ya...Adieu...